tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63369532011-10-01T13:16:27.729-04:00fly away with methis is gonna be a. long ride.semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comBlogger251100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-46051045125056999792011-03-19T11:12:00.004-04:002011-03-19T11:15:30.446-04:00i still find pieces of your presence hereeven, even after all of these years--you're still laced in my words, my actions, my thoughts. invisible, but if discerning enough, one could pick them out. in trying times, when my own character falters, i think to what you would do. and each time this guides me to a plan of action i would never regret.thank you d :)semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-2480530998884876182011-03-13T03:01:00.005-04:002011-03-13T05:50:34.475-04:00i'm folding the teeshirt you made for me, and i realize that i've finally buckled. there's no romanticism left. no happiness. no warmth. just disgust and regret. this realization that you're not capable of loving someone or appreciating their love for you. this clarity that you can only see feel and understand yourself- your own feelings- your desires. i hate it. but i hate hating you more.i wishsemicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-25463302754711862692011-02-13T13:49:00.003-05:002011-02-14T23:58:10.409-05:00heart skipped a beatbut when i caught it you were out of reach--i'm sure i'm sure you've heard it all beforethe more i see, i understand butsometimes, i still need yousometimes, i still need yousometimes, i still need you.our love is a little hard to explain, and it's probably been dramatized and romanticized on both ends. this song reminisces of your warmth in the darkness and the scent of your semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-52753852846094065172011-01-03T22:47:00.007-05:002011-01-04T00:00:34.081-05:00freewrite.2010. two relationships. two break-ups. a trip to sf. one to colorado. another to puerto vallarta, mexico. several trips home, to ny, dc, and richmond. a weekend in san antonio. and a week of dallas with my parents. a spanish class, an interior design class, and a ballet class. one pair of pink ballet shoes. a year making a home in texas. a full year as a working adult. a rocky year of semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-3327904127969728742010-10-24T09:09:00.002-04:002010-10-24T09:26:52.761-04:00sunrise in dallas 10/24/2010(a frank description of observations and feelings)it had just rained not too long ago and the atmosphere is filled with humidity. i am equally moist, wet-haired and damp-bottomed, having just gotten out of the shower and sitting on the wet steps in front of apartments 203 and 204. the foliage all around the highlands is still green and birds are still whistling semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-6948600446831834082010-08-30T21:32:00.003-04:002010-08-30T21:53:30.052-04:00i had a pretty creative dream last night. a little surprised-- my mind usually works in mundane ways. dreams for me are usually a slow succession of horribly uninteresting nonevents. but last night i dreamt of you. i was standing against a wall, eating yogurt, minding my own business-- like any other nonevent in any other dream i have. and then i got a text message. from you.in this dream people semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-63376676414349251702010-07-26T22:07:00.003-04:002010-07-26T22:24:05.853-04:00those short months we were together are beginning to fade from memory. our unpleasant exchanges of words and accusations only compound all the bad memories and our complicated adult problems-- and they're starting to envelope all my thoughts of you. sorting out my photos, i come across this picture. one random day after coming home from work-- wanting to save a piece of your sweetness and my semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-17601613079819297602010-07-19T00:29:00.003-04:002010-07-19T00:38:04.586-04:00i haven't written much lately because writing without inspiration is, to say the very least, extremely difficult. but i was inspired today. and for the first time in a long time, i feel really good about where i am and what i'm doing. i'm starting to feel the hunger again, the hunger of pursuit. i'm really happy i'm single. that i'm not content with who i am, that i'm itching to grow. i'm happy semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-28308707085694858522010-06-29T02:18:00.002-04:002010-06-29T02:51:44.919-04:00what song was it? the death cab for cutie track that played outside the bar as we walked to the parking lot.. we were both a little tipsy and all of a sudden we were dancing. dancing under the open sky in the light of an endless texas day. i never wanted to leave.there were a lot of moments with you i never wanted to end. from the very first, very awkward "you said you wanted me to be more semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-81838262249944904322010-05-18T19:56:00.002-04:002010-05-18T20:04:45.251-04:00just finished /a virtuous woman/ by kaye gibbons. some nice quotes:what possessed you to do the wrong thing when i needed the right thing the most? i don't ask for much from you. can't you see that anything less than not exactly right hurts worse than i already hurt? you've got to cure me or either love me so strongly that i feel some of this pain pass from me. those are the only things you have semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-70352953991795634212010-03-27T15:53:00.002-04:002010-03-27T15:58:12.437-04:00in pursuit of love.semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-49412356035488099172010-03-07T11:53:00.003-05:002010-03-07T12:53:01.209-05:00interests: travelling. coffee. tea. frolicking. squiggling to musics. smiling till my eyes disappear. being a bonobo. chillaxing to the max...ing ;). poetry anthologies and short stories. good lyrics. artsy stuff. interesting people. montana and nepal, though i've never been. leaving some experiences to the imagination. summer and spring. loving people. learning spanish.. slowly. cooking all day semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-16834400292186040862010-03-01T23:32:00.002-05:002010-03-01T23:37:00.701-05:00would he succeed in saving a few scraps of this inner world and making it visible to others? or would things just go on the same way: new towns, new landscapes, new women, new experiences, new images, piled one on the other, experiences from which he gleaned nothing but a restless, torturous as well as beautiful overflowing of the heart?it was shameless how life made fun of one; it was a joke, a semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-4286143049146939432010-02-01T13:14:00.003-05:002010-02-01T13:32:55.246-05:00the man of my dreams is a lovera lover of souls and of dreamsof nature and beautyof life and all of its experienceshe loves whollyexperiences deeplylives freelyand gives and gives and givesto the world as much as the world has given himas much as the world has given anyonei love him for loving. living. giving. and.. i don't think i can love someone who does not love the world with every inch of semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-47960291296222141732010-01-11T13:35:00.002-05:002010-01-11T13:35:49.520-05:00reachable resolutions. see below.stretch resolutions- just one. BECOME AN AVATAR.semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-46088442292254909872010-01-06T20:57:00.002-05:002010-01-06T20:57:57.448-05:00grocery shopped after work. just got home. changed out of work clothes. about to start making thai red curry for my first time. feeling like a lady :)semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-83823447667013902812010-01-03T11:36:00.003-05:002010-01-03T12:04:19.941-05:00New years resolutions · Follow up with my projects oLearn Spanish oFinish making Gloria’s bday present, Angie’s wedding gift, LJ’s wedding gift, David’s holiday present oContinue going to dance class on Wednesday nights~ · Eliminate time-wasters · Take time to organize. Make the effort to stay neat. · Go out less · Give away 75$/mo. to the needy · Be more financially aware · Be semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-6773332354206406342009-09-21T22:02:00.002-04:002009-09-21T22:06:45.777-04:00i miss the northeast. and the midwest. i miss missing summer as semptember takes over august. and the crisp chill that autumn brings.eternal summer of the seasonless land. i miss that you. that me. the leaves changing color as i walk to greenway. the autumn cold. my torn wool leggings. the anticipation of warmth. of the comfort of skin. sensations of my senior year..days go by~~semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-63717139887132771012009-09-16T09:08:00.001-04:002009-09-16T09:22:36.417-04:00a little faith. as alex wrote last night, sometimes in the neediest of our moments, we hesitantly reach out to a friend, a lover or a stranger… and we find ourselves with more than we could ever ask for—a little bit of faith. talked to him for the first time in months last night. alex and steph and gloria and ryan and jenn and jma and douglas andd. I had a good night. Typing away from 6 to 9. Isemicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-6528379197024878042009-09-14T22:59:00.004-04:002009-09-15T00:38:09.493-04:00figured out the missing ingredient: chivalry. i thought i had long outgrown my childhood dreams of fairy stardust and romance. that i had now stumbled into the world of womanhood, where only i was the owner of my soul, sexuality, and self. and that only little girls swoon over.. chivalry.at 27, lj marvelled over my 19-year-old perspective of love. faith. dedication. at 19, i was shocked to find semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-61049717587253502832009-09-13T16:56:00.005-04:002009-09-14T22:40:47.221-04:00one for sorrowtwo for joy broke my choux pastry heartguess life's no picture post card three for a girlfour for a boy sometimes you win oooh~ sometimes you losei don't wanna lose you don't even own youI just wanna stay right hereuntil never dawns semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-44457090181545554172009-09-04T18:38:00.002-04:002009-09-04T18:40:03.526-04:00You're hopeless 'cause you tell the truthThe stars are jealous of your shineIf you were mine-- there's not a thing I wouldn't doYou're black and beautiful, yellow, tanYou're white as light and soft as sandWith greens and greys and oh for daysA silver lining on the way you cover everyoneJust like a morning sunYou turn me into someone I would rather beYou're coffee brown and bubble gum pinkAnd oh Isemicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-1081443139600909822004-04-08T12:52:00.000-04:002004-04-08T12:56:08.233-04:00过完整个夏天 忧伤并没有好一些
开车行驶在公路无际无边 有离开自己的感觉
唱不完一首歌 疲倦还剩下黑眼圈
感情的世界伤害在所难免 黄昏再美终要黑夜
依然记得从你口中说出再见坚决如铁
昏暗中有种烈日灼身的错觉
黄昏的地平线 划出一句离别 爱情进入永夜
依然记得从你眼中滑落的泪伤心欲绝
混乱中有种热泪烧伤的错觉
黄昏的地平线 割断幸福喜悦 相爱已经幻灭 semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-1076638928392894882004-02-12T21:20:00.000-05:002004-02-12T21:24:49.343-05:00:In celebration of the one year anniversary of s t e p h and l i z {EST: 02/14/2003}:
D a i s i e s i n y o u r h a i r
Perhaps in another time,
I would have truly fought with steel
for your loveand battled scaly dragons
for a moment of your smile.
In another place,
the geese on the lake
would have watched us in silence,
and the cricketswould have praised our love
with joyous songs.
semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6336953.post-1074214699309215652004-01-15T19:51:00.000-05:002004-01-15T20:00:12.936-05:00Give me the people and free my soul
i wanna get lost in your rock and roll
and drift away..
found something to keep my mind off xanga during midterm/SAT season.
ohhhhh baby.semicharmedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12101097059487309345noreply@blogger.com